Why are men afraid..................?

Why are men afraid of the L word wen u tell them first? Here's the thing i told my boyfriend that i love him an he freaked out on me an said things he didnt mean cuz he was scared but he hurt my feelings in the process but he told me dat he neva felt luv or been in luv be4 an we broke up but now we are just friends we luv each other but we are afraid of luv an commitment but i really want this guy becuz i feel like i can show him wat real luv is an how having a gud woman feels but he up an leaves all da time an neva stay around...I cant allow myself 2 be wit anyone else or give my heart 2 anotha man but i messed up i got mad an wat he said 2 me an let some otha guy give me a pion mark on my neck an he seen it an now he dont wanna try but he cant help how much he luvs me....i really want 2 know other peoples thoughts bout this please answer this for me!!!!!!!!!